Learner in Trusting

I know that I need grace to trust the Lord with my future. It's scary thinking about being out in the real "real world." I mean, people said that about college, but who are we kidding; college years are some of the most fun, spontaneous, free, and exhilarating times of your life. I look at December, being less than a year away and think: "this don't look fun to me," "Am I really ready for this?" I don't think I ever will be. I think I'm most afraid of not having an abundantly joy and fun filled life. I mean, I'll be living with 5 other rockin' sistas for a whole year and then BOOM! here comes real life to wack me in the face. This is my vision of the future. I need help in trusting that life can and will be abundant and full even after college is over, after I don't live with amazing girls, I'm in a new city or somewhere far off, and I don't know anyone, etc. I need to trust the Lord that His plans are good and that good doesn't mean sour, discolored, bland, dull, monotonous, etc. He can sustain joy and can provide friendships even after college is over. I fear being alone at times. I fear feeling lonely and having self pity. I know I am a learner in trusting the Lord with my future. I know that this subject must be diligently committed to him through prayer--that I would trust his timing and sequence of steps, his overall plans and his small details in my life, his pains and pleasures he brings. I was listening to a Third Day song today that says, "I must go through the valleys, to stand upon the mountain of God." I must go through the valley of not knowing or understanding how His will shall come to pass in my life and in my future. I must learn to trust that He is true to His promise to never leave nor forsake me EVER EVER EVER. When I feel alone that is false. He is always with me. No matter in sin or in step with him, he doesn't leave us. He is the faithful one. I was reading in Proverbs 15-16 this morning and the Lord showed me these verses towards trusting him with my future. Prov. 16:3 "Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed." Prov. 16:9 " In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." I pray that for all of you reading this, that you may be able to trust in the One who set us free to trust him. For all the uncertainty in life, all unknowns, fears, failures, short comings, victories, and life to be lived and had, He alone is big enough. He alone is wise enough for us to place our confidence in His plans. He alone is strong enough to sustain us. He alone generous enough to give us abundantly more than we could ever ask or imagine. He alone is righteous enough to use for His name's sake. He alone is patient enough to bear in love with us when we fall time after time trying to learn to trust him. He alone has loving eyes for us no matter what. He alone can comfort us in our deepest times of need. He alone can satisfy our overbearing hunger for companionship and friendship. He alone can be trusted fully and completely. I pray we have eyes that set themselves above to look full in His wonderful, life giving face. I pray that I believe all the above things. I have yet to believe all of them. I have yet to be so broken and display my dependence and desperation for him by spending significant amount of time in prayer over these things. I am but a learner still as I will always be until the day I die, a learner in trusting Him.